Bell Yu Tian 宇田 蝌蚪 Tadpole Sheets

Here are the sheets for Bell 宇田 蝌蚪 Tadpole~

https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B4FAsYcU02gsdmlnaVFWVEFzb0U

Video to synthesia tutorial is here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W7ffm3Da84Q

Have a nice day~

- DrewyJin -

#### THIS S#### IM OUT

Hey fam~ How's it going?

Remember how the last post I sounded so down? I'll break some details here.

To make things short, I applied for an exchange program but wasn't shortlisted despite fulfilling the grades, and the worst part of it is it was only my department that had such a small quota of 5 eligible students, while I was 6th/7th on the list. 

Thinking about it, I was quite eager to be accepted, so when I got the email, it took me some time to let the reality sink in, something that I think is good in a way that I don't react to disappointing moments immediately. So subsequently my days were rather.... sore. A few of my friends had asked if I was successful, and when I told them, it was this line that tugged the really sore string inside: "You can apply again next year.", “明年再申请过。”... While I firmly believe that is more or less the only acceptable reply in response to my situation, I felt as though that sentence reflected a lot on the unseen forces that make us who we are, and hence, I didn't feel good at all. 

I'm already trying to make this YouTube effort work, and I don't need other factors to tell me I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I've had enough of things telling me indirectly that I'm not good enough. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH. 

So instead of doing nothing at all, I decided to go against the norm, and appealed. I sent out some emails, met with my tutor bla bla bla.... I figured that it was easier to fight for my chance than to wait to apply for another year, because who knows what other commitments will show up the next year. 

So fast forward 2 weeks, I got a call from the International Office, and voila~ My Head Of Department managed to get extra place for exchanging students, and I was one of them. =)

So technically, the dust is over and I'm back from the dark days. 

But truthfully, I was about to accept my fate after my last email, and decided that if I'm to be denied entirely, I will be denied entirely. There's no half rejection of sorts, and I was gonna just accept that fact. But, guess some things are worth fighting for.

So here's the catch of this exchange: It'll be for a year. And I might not be able to find a piano there for my YouTube activities.... 

BUT again, I'm not going to let some factors such as this affect my promise. I will find a way to have my piano with me, be it a keyboard or a digital piano, as long as I can continue my efforts in making materials. OR I can find other materials to make? Who knows? I might turn into a comedian for a year! 

So one of the 2 songs that kept me busy during those days is this lovely Chinese song by Bell 宇田, and it's called 蝌蚪, literally "Tadpole". And also another anime song which I have always wanted to play. (It'll be a secret for now...)

Also, I'll be launching my new site soon as my Sheet Archive, since Google Docs just doesn't seem neat enough. 

So until then, I will return to making videos each week since its already SUMMER BREAK!!.... after my last paper on the 30th of May~ 

I hope to have your continual support. Thank you for 300 subs~ 

 SHEETS WILL BE MADE! 

PS: I've noticed on my analytics that the number of people coming here are rather consistent. I would love to know you guys, so maybe leave a comment or something? I could prepare something special if you did =)

My PROMISE

Hey~ Hope everyone coming here is doing fine... Cuz I'm not, and nobody deserves to feel like this. Odd how much can change since the last post...

I'll keep this 'sappy-less' as much as I can.

I've made sheets again, and this time its really thanks to Martin who requested for it~ I really didn't plan on making it, but hey, as long as someone asks for it, and its a reasonable piece to do, I'll gladly do it! 

So Martin, if you're ever here again, know that the sheets were made specially for you. Thank you for the request, it made me feel a little better at the time I saw your comment (albeit it was kinda late. Sorry about that ^^|||).

[ TUTORIAL ] Sword Art Online: Ordinal Scale - Catch The Moment Piano by DrewyJin sheets:
  https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B4FAsYcU02gsSExmNktyTHJJYXc

On the video description, I guess you can probably read it off, but I guess saying it here again won't hurt. In summary, making these sheets kinda brought me to another way of thinking about giving to "society". Initially, I was just thinking all about "if the song is manageable, than I'll do it." While this really is the case, its really just centering on me... Not those who come to my channel. I was thinking about if there's so many SAO sheets out there, why do it again? In the end, it's not me who matters. IT'S YOU. Making sheets isn't so much as to whether I can make them or not, but is more on my COMMITMENT to you. And that was the thought that got me through the few tough days before this posting. I was making sheets, and feeling awful at the same time, but thinking of making sheets as a form of COMMITMENT is a compulsion strong enough to have me keep doing the sheets despite my condition. After all, COMMITMENT IS A WHOLE HEARTED DISCIPLINE, NOT AN EMOTION BASED DECISION. 

As of now, the highest COMMITMENT I can give to you is to make sheets for the works I've done. Yes, it also depends on my availability, but more so on my efforts to GIVE TO SOCIETY, and my SOCIETY is of 200 people strong (uh...ok... I guess community should be more fitting a word, but society fits the context better...) If I can at least provide the sheets when they come to my channel, or this blog, than I would feel that I've done something for the community. And that is all I need to know...

So in all, I place my COMMITMENT into giving the best effort I can to help those who need it, and also into improving my production. This is my PROMISE. 

[ TUTORIAL ] Sword Art Online: Ordinal Scale - Catch The Moment Piano by DrewyJin 

So comes April...

Quite a roller coaster ride it has been recently~

Attack On Titan Season 2 was released (FINALLY) early this month, and guess I wasn't too late for the hype this time hehe ^^""

I could have done this earlier, but I had a camp over the weekend on the 7th - 9th of April, which effectively took out my practice time. BUT all well's over and done with, and since it's just TV size, I managed to get it done the following week~

Thinking back, that camp was much of great fun. It was a business simulation theme camp, and it was the first I've ever joined. Initially when the marketing team was promoting it to me, I didn't give much attention to it, since it was gonna take up 3 days of time. But... things happened, and I joined the camp with another friend of mine. 2 main reasons: I wanted to experience something new, and also because I wanted to get closer to... a certain someone >///< . 

WELP I'm not gonna spill anymore beans in case she finds out this blog and that's gonna be awkward for me haha. 

Wish I could tell more about the event, but that's gonna take a whole long posting again. Here's the article of the camp I wrote for my uni's portal, perhaps it can be a sort of preview of what happened: http://sanottingham.org/say-yes-to-malaysia-youth-entrepreneur-challenge-camp-myecc-2-0/ 

"I've enjoyed our little run-ins. I hope to know you more~"

Here's my arrangement for Attack On Titan Season 2 OP - Shinzou wo Sasageyo 

See you all again when I come back from exams~ Meanwhile I'll work on some sheets of my SAO Arrangement~ Hopefully I can get it penned down!

SPECIAL UPLOAD

I'm LATE TO THE PARTY AGAIN. 

Man, sometimes I just hate myself for not being visionary enough. Remember that time when Sword Art Online Ordinal Scale movie was the hype? I should have just made a video of it then. zzz...

Oh well... at least I did fulfill my own promise to make an arrangement of it, and being one of the bigger anime songs attempted after my rather failed Your Lie In April arrangement, I'm quite happy with the results of this SAO arrangement =D

Moving on, SAO Ordinal Scale Catch The Moment is a special upload to commemorate my first year in YouTube. I haven't gone far, but I did find some happiness/satisfaction in this hobby of mine: it has given me some sense of achievement, albeit a small one, and has pushed me to do things I have never done before. Making sheets is one of them. I really didn't think of developing a habit to make sheets when I just started, but one thing led to another and now I'm making my own sheets whenever I can. And for that I'm very grateful to found a new discipline to follow.

Speaking of sheets, I know I haven't been making them recently. I'm getting bogged down by studies till I don't really have time to practice properly. I really wish I could get my own doppelganger. effectively doubling my available time everyday.

A final note: Thank you for the support over the past year! I'm inching very slowly to improvement, but a progress is a progress. I hope to be able to go even further in this coming YouTube year and see that I can surpass people's expectation of me. I hope you'll still be here, and thank you for being with me for the past year. Love you~

- DrewyJin - 

PS: Lisa looks so pretty here! 

Here's the SPECIAL UPLOAD: Sword Art Online: Ordinal Scale - Catch The Moment Piano
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ki53FzemtUw

I Have My Dreams. Am I Worthy?

I guess there are just times when things around you just get to you...

So a week ago, I had my first anime performance in Uni. Everything and all went OK. You can check out the videos on the event to have a look at what took place.

Sigh... It has been a year since I officially got onto YouTube and had my channel properly set up. I remember being so active last year: I was sourcing music to learn, techniques to modify and just looking for inspiration to let me go all the way to make my account the best I could. Along the way, I'm kinda sure that I was being a nuisance to my Friends on Facebook, cuz of my trying to get the support XD 

Indeed... I am VERY CONCERNED on how I appear to people. I fear that by persistently sharing my work, which I am always trying to improve, people might think of me as one of those "Online Wannabes". =( 

I can always deny this, but I can't deny the fact that I cannot change their minds once they think of me like that. I just hope that I can prove it to them otherwise, if perhaps, I can be given the chance...

That's why I keep this blog. I'm sharing my views here so that if anyone sees the posts I'm making, they can know me more, and not just assume I'm some attention seeking baby. Further more, I even make my personal FB account public to all, just to allow a greater degree of knowing me and contacting me for sheets or stuff. 

Personally, I have my dream to achieve on YouTube (cliché AF). How I actually got this dream was a result of many lonely moments in high school, when my "friends" were more interested copying my work instead of letting me be part of the gang. I was rather lonely back then. There were days that I was just so depressed seeing how people around had their own big gang while I was never really a part of any gang at all. And I had a certain aura that no matter how hard I tried to make an impression on a new friend I just made, they just wouldn't remember my name. ==""

Don't get me wrong. I'm not a recluse. I enjoy having the right company around! But I just don't know what sort of aura I had over my head that prevented me from being part of any real clan in my class... I didn't start YouTube at that time, so it definitely wasn't being nosy around with my videos and all. 

So during one of those low moments, a thought came to me and it has stuck to me ever since: I'm rather lonely. How nice would it be if I had people who knew me, people who looked up upon me. How nice if I were famous....

Whoa. Famous? Me? You've gotta be kidding. I've got no talent! My music skills back then, even now, are just not enough to WOW people. And I was a jack of all trade in sports.. (HAHA that sounded too good. I was just OK in sports. Could play any sports basketball football badminton etc with some mediocre skills, but not the school team standard) I couldn't possibly be famous!

No matter how I tried to shake off that thought, whenever I see those friends of mine having some great laugh while I was doing my work at the back of the class, the thought would just keep banging into my head... (Did I ever mentioned I was a back row student? Haha random fact!)

So it wasn't until some years later after the inception of that "Being Famous" thought that I finally decided that I wasn't going to bother about any shit about myself, and just try my best to achieve it. Because even after graduating from high school, I was still being tailed by that certain aura that just couldn't have people remember me!  (There are many times where I made new contacts in college, and I remember their names, but 5/7 would return and say "Oh I'm sorry. What was your name?" GRRRGGRGRGRGRGR!!!!)

Why wouldn't you remember my name?? 

 Those events added a bit more motivation into putting that "Being Famous" thought into action, cuz even if you're famous, people still might not know you personally, but hey, they remember your name, right? 

So all those mentioned experiences were my initial motivation to start off YouTube-ing. I just want people to remember my name... And perhaps, I guess to make more friends?

So there you have it. This is my reason for continuing my YouTube efforts, even though my account growth is just soooo sloooowww... It's a promise I made to myself to improve, and to keep improving until the end of my time, because I have no talent, but I want to have the talent of playing beautiful music, because that's the only thing that I love doing! (I got onto YouTube without much love for playing or making music, but after I got onto it, I realized how much it meant to me, and I wanted to make something out of it after learning music for so long. More on this in my next posting.) I could just sit at the piano whole day to force myself to learn some arpeggios scales techniques and run my fingers through my arrangements to be ready for a recording session. I just want to improve. I want to improve until I don't cringe at my own music... 

Lastly, I have nothing to hide. I don't want to be viewed as those "Online Wannabes" or some attention seekin baby. I wanna lose this loneliness that's been stuck with me for years, the sense that I have no where to belong. I don't want to put on a mask and be with the wrong people, and be tolerant to groups that just isn't my group. 

I want to belong. I want to feel accepted. I want to be acknowledged for my skills. And I hope you can help me in achieving my dream, because I cannot succeed without a community supporting my growth. I wish you will be part of my reason to success, and I wish to have you as a part of my story.  

Thank you for staying.

Here are the corresponding links:
Event summary: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E7qexAzN734

Event Performance DrewyJin FULL: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eJCf3iSWYto

Final Fantasy XV and FIRST Anime Performance!!

ALRIGHT LET'S SET THIS UP AGAIN.

Close to a month without any content... An eventful month it was.

I think my last post was just after CNY? Yep, so that makes it close to a month. LET ME SHARE WITH YOU SOME AWESOME STUFF THAT HAPPENED.

First: I GOT A PS4 AND..... FINAL FANTASY XV! The bill was split between my sister and I. BUT here's the sad part of it. We didn't know the game disc was region locked, aka the disc had to match the address of your Sony account to get the DLCs and all. My Sony account was under the Asia region, but the disc was a European disc. AND, the vendor conveniently left that information out. F*** HIM 99. That bitch did unethical business. I ended up trading in my disc at another mall which I felt had better service, and had a nice chat with the shopkeeper there haha. I went there one day, asked them about my being unable to get the Chocobo Carnival and all, and they did some awesome clarification hohoho. So in the end, I went there the next day to trade in and issue solved, albeit with more money spent... Sigh... But,  it is playable now ^^

No kidding dudes. I love the FF series~

ALRIGHT NEXT STORY.

I recently had a performance for my uni's Japanese Festival, or Bunkasai. And it was my first performance playing anime songs~ which I kinda enjoyed~ All the while before, whenever I performed pop songs and all (Eng or Chinese), I always felt that they were lacking something solid, like there's a connection missing or something. This time, performing anime songs was kinda like having the mountain breeze sweep your mind away, and having the sound of the sea waves gently singing to you... Something like that hahah... 

I will be making a video about the event, and SPOILERS: YOU GONNA HEAR ME TALK. Crap, my voice sounds so darn deep on camera, I cringe every time I listened to it. BUT let's just do something different, Cuz I did say on my channel that I do videos other than music arrangements, so I guess I'm sticking to my word for it. @@

Here's some pics from the event. 

Cafe doorstep doll. 

Yea, it was an open event, and the stage wasn't in a hall. But I have no issues with that =)

They even have their own shirt!

Ohh, my babeh carrying my name... Muacks

Hehehehe... this cute Origami chicken I did!

Some waifus display...

MORE waifus display...

Whose waifu is this? Anyone? I'm sure she belongs to many,,,

THIS. IS. MY. WAIFE~

Hello Jeanne. I haven't watched Fate Grand Order yet, but I'll do so one day.

Games arena...

Performance going on. This vocalist had a very nice voice~

Some stuff on sale...

Kuyt kitteh banner!

This, is, an underrated attraction. How could anyone not be amazed by his/her costume??

OK. I REALLY COULDN'T TELL IF HE/SHE WAS A DUDE OR A GIRL underneath that amazing work.
If he/she ever sees this, do know that YOU'RE AWESOME. The organizers should have taken more photos of you for
promotion purposes next year...

  

And here's the untalented me, who is trying to look talented, but knows he can't cuz he's a noob.
LOL.

I do have a video of myself performing, but its just too long to be shared here. I'll be making a video of the event anyway, so in it I will just show some parts of the performance. So once I'm ready the video will be here somewhere~

OH OH  I nearly forgot, Here's the corresponding video for this posting! Theme of King JJ!

Right, time to head back to reality.... I'm such a slow learner sigh...